exchange student

last night

my dream was kinda sad-slash-scary to me

there was a class of student from Oxford University 

came to UTM for a visit

*kelassss ko Jah

then after their visit, 

6 of them were going to stay

for Student Exchange Program..

and only that morning, i was told 

that i was selected for the program too

means that i will be going to Oxford!

i did not prepare anything..

no cloths

no money

no passport

etc etc

my flight will be departure

at noon..

and it was impossible for me too prepare

all that stuff

within 3 hours before my flight

so i cried so hard because i know

i will never ever get this opportunities again!

i remember that i begged so hard at my lecturer

so he can give me second chance

it was a very sad and embarrassing

 moments at the airport..

the lecturer blame me for my mistakes

i should had checked the notice board

i told him that im truly sorry

finally with his annoying face,

he asked me to see another lecturer

a Chinese lecturer

he explained to me that this should not happened 

he was sorry that i cannot join

this program if im not prepared

then i wake up from this bad dream

i was so sad

there were tears in my eyes

i dont know why i feel so sad

i never dream to go 

for this kind of program

the best part of my 

so called 

"nightmare"

is when i begged the lecturer

that i will pay all the expenses using

my own money

how im going to pay?

silly me !