Rainbow
Assalamualaikum
after 3 weeks of starting my fifth semester
masih lagi berjimba-jimba
movies all night, everynight
xsedar assignment den da bertingkek-tingkek
so as i predicted earlier
my time table would be full of meeting this person
that person
negotiate with this person
laughing with that person
* so many new person
biasalah bila pergi carik tempat
untuk dinner nie
macam-macam ragam manusia i jumpe
but all of this really makes me build my confidence level
masa ni lah belajar how to talk with people right
and also to host a meeting
wahh
selalu before nie, tiap kali pergi meeting program
i biasa duduk kat satu corner,
and sit there quietly and be invisible as i can
pastuh sekarang i yang host meeting kan
so neves kemain la mase mule-mule
now ok je kowt
so many things happened in the past 3 weeks
i cried
i lost
i hated
i swear so much
i guess it just too many things to digest in one time
i dunno what to say
i tried to be calm as possible
i tried to ignore all the silly things
but when it hit straight to my face,
im SPEECHLESS
it feels like ur very bestfriend slap you
hardly on your face
i doesnt feel the pain on my face
but deep in my heart
very deep down there
*sigh
semua orang mesti pernah cakap2
and sembang2 dengan
budak-budak kan
you know that u will also make the cutest
tiny little voice when u talk to them
" alololo..comel nyyy baju awak nieee "
sort of gedik-gedik gitu
so my point is
kalau kita layan budak-budak,
kita pown sama-sama jadi budak-budak
therefore
i decided not to go on with this
maybe you see me as a childish person
act like i dun care
like i have no feeling
i do care about my friendship
i do love my friendship
but how could you ever think of
me,,
betraying the friendship?
how could you...
tak tergamak i nak buat
tapi tergamak pulak you gice fikir i macam tuh
*sigh
now everything have been explained
what i really meant,
what i need to defend
i had explained everything
i have nothing else to say
im hurt
im just hoping that
the rainbow will come out
after the rain
and
may Allah grant you the happiness that you seek for.
