im scared to death..

i still remember 18th November 2009, Wednesday..hari di mana semua pelajar 17 tahun seluruh malaysia mula bertarung, di atas berhelai-helai kertas..memerah otak bagi mendapatkan keputusan yang terbaik..yup...im one of the students..

sepanjang exam tuh,nak kate senang..xgak...susah pown xgak..im having difficulties in every single paper that i answered..especially english and history..im blank! i dont know why but for god sake, i have no idea what i wrote..and it was suck..

overall, i could not smile or feel happy after every time i finished a paper..tengok orang lain hepy2..senyum2..tanda puas hati dgan ape yang mereka dah buat..its not like im not satisfied with what i wrote,but its just..different..i cant feel the happiness..its like i've done the biggest mistake in the whole world..why im the only one feels that..i feel so terrible..

now the spm result is just around the corner..i can see the excitement of my mother waiting for the result ..the glow in her eyes..hoping that her daughter will be the best..the proud smile that my father show every time we talked about the result..oh Allah,help me to get trough this moment..i cant break their heart..their hope..im begging for Your miracle,ouh mighty Allah!

i know i've tried my best..but..i dont know...please help me to prepare myself for every possibilities that may come..tabah kan lah hati ini ya allah..sesungguhnya aku ingin membalas jasa2 ibu dan ayah yang tidak terbilang banyak nya..segala pengorbanan yang telah mereka lakukan..may they feel the happiness..on this Thursday..Amiin..