rindu
Assalamualaikum
I do wanna write something from time to time, but I don’t have much time.. busy with the PSM thingy..I need to pedal harder just to finish all this bullshit..
But now, right at this moment.. I feel so much pain in my heart
I guessed I miss my mom so much.. I really wish that she’s still here with me.. I've been through a lot of hell..but I have no one to share.. not actually no one, but not the one that I want to share.. I used to share with her.. we shared everything.. and I kinda miss that moment .. it had been 4 years since the last time I talked to her.. hug her.. kiss her.. and.. hmm
I had lost one of the greatest god’s gift..
Sometime, I dreamed about her.. in my dream, I know that she’s already gone.. but I pretend like it never happen.. and usually if I dreamt of her.. I will tell her everything that I wanna share.. and she was like.. “ ibu tahu, kakak " in the dream also, she knows that she actually doesn't exist..
There’s one time, I dreamt that I was coming home from JB.. then as I entered my house.. I heard someone was cooking.. I went to the kitchen and I saw my mom.. she’s cooking something.. then I just hugged her so tight.. and she ask me “ kenapa ni kakak” I cried on her shoulder.. I was actually crying for real that night..
I know she’s watching over me ..
I know even though we are in different world.. she’s still here with me..
I'm just.. arghhhh.. everything are so damn fucking stressful
I wish I can just come home and hug my mom
I wish..
I better get my shit together now.. wipe the tears.. put up that big fat smile.. act like im the happiest living homo sapien!
Happy mother’s day ibu..kakak rindu ibu..
p/s : ibu, can i call u? I need to talk to you :'(