miss her :')

sabtu lepas,kami sekeluarga ade membuat 

kenduri arwah buat bonda tercinta

yang genap 100 hari pemergiannya

pada 17hb mei 2011..

alhamdulillah.. sumeny berjalan dgn lancar..

cume i rase sgt2 kosong.. bcoz my family 

nie jenis yg kerap buat kenduri..

and kenduri planner tuh mestilah my mom kann..

but now..

hmmmmmmmmm..

it feels so different..

xde la lagi dgr owang jerit2..

"kakak!! nie xkemas ag.. pinggan mangkuk nie xsusun ag??!"

yeah.. totally miss her voice..

and i juz wanna share with you..

i mimpi my mom for three night in this week..

first night, 

rabu malam khamis..

i mimpi i nga lepak2 ngn dye like we oways did

then suddenly.. dye minx jam i.. dye kate tuh jam dye

i ckp la balik.. jam ibu ade kat umah..nie jam akak..

but she keeps on telling that my watch is her watch..

*i miss to argue with her :(

second night,

jumaat malam sabtu

i mimpi.. i g hospital.. then i g kat katil dye..

dye nampak macam x sihat..

i tanye la dye.. ibu demam kew?

dye kate dye sejuk.. then i selimutkan la dye..

ble dye da selesa.. dye suh i barink kat sebelah dye..

i pown barink la.. then dye pegang tangan i..

mate dye sayu sgt2..

i pandang mate dye.. then i kate 

"ibu, akak sayang ibu sgt2 taw"

sambil i cakap mcm tuh kat dye.. sambil tuh gak aer mate 

i mengalir..

then dye pown kate la balik..

"ibu sayang akak setiap masa "

memang tuhan sahaje yang tahu.. betape sebaknye 

dapat dgr ibu kate mcm tuh..

i cried so hard until i suddenly woke up from my dream..

it was so sad.. tat my tears still running out the moment i woke up..

;(

the third night

sabtu malam ahad.

my kitchen baru jew lepas renovate

and i mimpi i nampak ibu kat dapur.. nga basuh pinggan..

i pown lepak la kat dapur.. dlm mimpi tuh..

i cite kat dye yg i ade mimpi pasal dye semalam..

*yea.. i noe it was an awkward momment

i dreamed i told her about my last dream

heee.. and she laugh about it.. :)

it feels so comforting to hear her giggles :)

ya allah..

tempatkanlah bondaku di kalangan kekasih2 Mu

moga bondaku dicucuri limpah rahmat dan kurnia dari Mu.. 

aminn